about
who are you?
my name's alex :) nice to meet you!
i'm 27, queer (nonbinary and a lesbian - which is a new development, i've spent over half my life believing that i was bi or pan), currently live in poland, have adhd, and deal very poorly with cringe humour xD
ughhh i really hate writing bios of any sort, but i'm going to try my best
despite making this site and having multiple social media accounts, i don't really post anything too often. something to do with the ever present anxiety that makes me want to crawl under a rock and disappear anytime i cant judge how people are reacting to my presence. makes me feel vulnerable i suppose xD so often i'm a lurker in online spaces due to fear, but i actually like interacting with people. it's silly, but if you feel like reaching out, please do! just don't judge me for not taking the first step please xD
ANYWAYS! i'm just a silly nerd with a rolodex of interests that i cycle through anytime i finish mining the dopamine from a hyperfixation. i spend most of my time on ao3, discord, and tiktok. i really should cut down on that last one at least xD
what else... i mean, i work in tech support? i'm not a super techie or anything, everything i know i learned on the job as i started working right after sixth form, so... i credit any success to my ability to recognize patterns lol
current hyperfixations:
- dc fanfiction (specifically tim drake or jason todd centric)
- ttrpgs (generally, but mostly the unlit path and absurdia right now)
- music (currently vibing hard with bauhaus, jhariah, and luvcat)
- tv shows (amc iwtv and hannibal)
- longform yt vids (back on the wendigoon thing, making my way through the vods on wendigang)
- sims 4 (listen. i know its bad. ea just wants my money. but i keep getting dragged back every couple of months)
- forest shuffle (the boardgame. a friend got me to play it on bga and i'm so obsessed with it. i wanna buy a physical copy)
i spent a lot of my time on tumblr as a teenager. was there for most of the superwholock phase, though luckily i never bought a tardis dress. i've been a part of a lot of fandoms and seen a lot of fandom discourse. it's kind of tiring seeing the same censorship debate pop up every couple of years so if you feel super strongly about pro/anti ship stuff please just block me. i personally don't fall on either side and my thoughts on this matter are complex, but they generally boil down to: censorship is bad and doesn't actually protect anyone. (i might write up my thoughts in a separate post at some point)
with that disclaimer out of the way, this is a non-exhaustive list of fandoms i've spent time in:
- james bond (specifically daniel craig's bond)
- teen wolf
- harry potter (fuck you joanne)
- marvel/avengers (dropped out of the mcu around Captain America 2 because it was released that they were going with the civil war story line and i was/am not interested)
- spiderman - all media types (i feel like most neurodivergents go through a spiderman phase at some point?)
- the magnus archives podcast (no i'm not caught up with the magnus protocol)
- tiny terrors podcast (i met so many people through being active in this community. i kind of miss it, but the hiatus cause me to lose my hyperfixation :( )
- pride and prejudice (listen, the fanfiction is really good. i'm a bbc miniseries or og book gal, i actually havent even seen the 2005 movie)
- bbc sherlock (of course. i actually still remember watching the season 2 finale on an old crt in my room while on a skype call with my friends. if you spent any time on tumblr, one of my urls was i-am-sher-locked xD)
- supernatural (i actually managed to watch up till seaosn 10 before it got too ridiculous even for me)
- percy jackson (...yes i was one of those greek mythology kids. in my defence i was originally an egyptian mythology nerd but there wasnt enough kids fiction to keep my interest xD
- assassin's creed (i was obsessed with this series, and ac2 is still one of my comfort games)
- s&d tier tiktok series (the fandom for this was really fun, okay? i got super into one of the nsfw fanfic servers for this fandom for a while xD those people were fun)
- bbc merlin
- suits (idk, this was pretty short lived, though i did get to shake megan markles hand at some point? my life has been odd)
- malevolent podcast (harlan guthrie... when i get you harlan guthrie!!)
- COD (i've never played a single game, nor do i want to, but that one compilation of the banter between soap and ghost during that one mission... that was fun xD also the twitter fandom is feral and so fun to lurk)
- hannibal (am currently rewatching but i haven't really felt drawn to the fanfics this time around. this might change once we finish watching season 2 lol)
- twilight (i was 11. i devoured those books a couple times over. i got better xD)
- various isekai or villainess manga or manhwa
- perfect girl evolution/the wallflower manga or anime (i haven't watched the live action, that feels like it's going to be too cringy for me xD)